It was supposed to be such a special day. Yesterday was supposed to have been the day we would apply to adopt a little dog at our local no-kill shelter.
Monday on our local noon news, they showed this little dog from a local shelter that appeared to be just the little dog for us. He was one year old, part miniature schnauzer and part jack russell terrier. They said he was mild mannered and laid back. I mean he sounded like he was made to order for the Pop home.
So yesterday morning we drove out to the shelter to meet this little guy. Bless his heart, he had issues. He had been abused and was frightened of everyone and every noise. At one point he escaped the shelter workers grasp and tried to run away. He showed no response to humans except fear.
As I petted the little dog, so many things were going through my mind. This little dog was going to need a lot of work and patience. He would be a project and at this time in my life, I am just not ready to take on such a project. As much as I love dogs, I knew that I just couldn’t devote the time and energy that this little animal needed. Instead of filling out papers to apply for adoption, we thanked the shelter worker for her assistance and returned home.
I don’t know if I made a mistake or not. I do know that once we do decide on a little dog, it will be in our life for the rest of its life and I don’t want to start out with more hesitation than happiness. So what was supposed to be a special day, turned into a day of soul searching but no little dog. Now if I only knew what to do with these pangs of guilt that seem to be staying with me.